Yes… I finally realized
in a story. It’s no wonder I’ve been struggling… for a very long time *facepaperbag*

Yes. I made another new story. For the I-don’t-know-th TIME!! It’s basically about a girl… who is a lost cause… “what is love!? I FORGAT!

And so, I sort of thought the story was really dumb. I never thought of the antagonist first. I’ve been making the main character/protagonist and then I was like…

Well fack! If you don’t know, I’LL NEVER KNOW THE PURPOSE IN WRITING LAIF!!

And so, I was sad and put my head in a white paper bag. No, that didn’t really happen, but it happened in my thoughts.

And so… okay. Right now, I’m making the antagonist a female bully of the protagonist’s high school/classroom. It sounds so cliche though. Or… does it not!? But yes, a bully, and she makes what the story is supposed to be ALLLLL ABOUTTT!! but what I was doing with the antagonist is making her really jealous of the protagonist and yes… bullies her. Because. The protagonist has EVERYTHING the antagonist ever wants! Like…

  1. A sexy guy friend (the bully only has girl friends and just dates random guys…?)
  2. A hot older brother (the bully doesn’t have an older brother or treats her nicely)
  3. A super cute secret admirer (the bully doesn’t… quite have that. A lot of kids are scared of her)
  4. A TRUE best friend (the bully only has… fake friends who follow her around)

Not sure if those sound realistic, but OH WELL! But the thing is… how will this person start out the story? Something like revenge? Something like… provocation? SOMETHING. The story has been struggling with finding a true storyline. It’s like… it doesn’t exist yet. I was going to do…

HAY let’s get the protagonist to get rejected by her crush!
and think love is a friggin LIE afterall!!
But… THAT doesn’t seem much of an impact, does it?

Yea. I thought of how to write the prologue too. It seems, that I… have to research about prologues… And the prologue sounds like crapper-knuckles!! I’m just going to… make the antagonist then. Yes. I’ll go do that now…


Outlining, writing, and more writing…

Finally, I actually made an outline for the new game/visual novel, Odd Love Test ~a taste of sweet revenge~. Sort of changed a few things. As usual, I’m struggling with making the characters’ personalities. BUT anyway…

Ana gets captivated by Rin, who she met at the school roof, and when her boyfriend Ken sees them together, he misunderstands the situation and thinks she’s cheating on him. The two broke up and Ana wanted revenge to show that he will regret breaking up with her. Ana’s cousin Risa made a “love test” to see if Ken still has feelings for her by having a fake (popular) boyfriend, Rin and looking as if she happy with him when in actuality she has no feelings for him, but will that “love test” really succeed?

Erm, I hope that synopsis wasn’t too confusing. I got the outline down, but not the synopsis. How the story will go…

  1. Prologue: Dreaming about… what will happen in the future!
  2. Chapter 1: The break up? The “new boyfriend?”
  3. Chapter 2: Ken’s thoughts about what just happened.
  4. Chapter 3: How Ana acts with fake boyfriend
  5. Chapter 4: Ken’s thoughts about the two of them and what he does next
  6. Chapter 5: What the “love test” really is about
  7. Chapter 6: Is this fake boyfriend… not fake after all!?
  8. Chapter 7: Ken really doesn’t like seeing Ana with her “new boyfriend!”
  9. Epilogue: What will happen next!? Ken or Rin!?
  10. Several separate endings!

Wait, this is an outline right? IT IZ RAIT!? *gets stressed and passes out*

2As of now, the writing seems super boring. BUT. It’s just the draft for now. So… I think I’ll rewrite it however many times necessary, fix it up, once I’m finished writing the first time.

But seriously…


I don’t get it. It must be because of the “break up.” Plus the relationship (dull relationship). How can I write a dull relationship more exciting? I DUN FACKING KNOE.

I’m not sure if this is an otome game/visual novel anymore (GxB game) because there’s going to be 2 narrators, Ana and Ken (girl and boy) which means… GxB and BxG. How… does that… happen…!? It’s partially otome? ……………………..WHATEVER.

After all the writing I was doing with Virtual Boyfriend: Secret Diary NAO I haz 2 RAIT MOAR AGEN for a different game…

BLARGHH. *falls on bed and becomes a hibernating bear*

I don’t understand this storyline.

Was trying to write something different from the boring-esque storyline into a weird type of storyline. I don’t even understand it myself! But it has to do with a time-traveling rose. Why is the rose a time-traveling rose!? I don’t get it.

The main character opens a box with stuff from last year and finds an old journal entry. She opens it up and each page was faded and looked like the entries were unfinished. On each page, a rose petal was imprinted. It was a weird red color as if it were some sort of poison, but she was curious about it and touched it. Then it was if her fingers were being sucked in touching the imprinted rose petal.

Strangely, she entered a strange room she doesn’t remember seeing before. Around her was the smell of roses, an intoxicating aroma in the air. Ahead of her was a man with a crystal ball—a psychic who tells her the future of this world. She was told she always visits him to ask for her daily readings, but this month (February 2012) is different. The man tells her that she will find love this month and gives her a strange rose that looks as if a spell was cast on it.

Her fingers get sucked into the thorns and bleed, as if forming a pact with the rose.58The man and the room disappeared and the rose she was holding suddenly turned into a red pen, thinking holding a rose was just her imagination. But it wasn’t. Her finger tips have marks on them like she really was pierced by the rose thorns. She thought the pen was weird and threw it somewhere!

When she went out of that room, it was almost like all of her memories were lost, including where her home was. Except she actually appears in front of the house and her mother who was out fixing her front yard tells her why she isn’t in school.

This is really… confusing to me. I’m not sure how to write this all out. But the girl is supposed to go to school and doesn’t remember anything, like where to go and what to do, until she meets someone who knows that she’s supposed to go to her specific class and what not.

The previous story I was writing was just reminiscing about the past and getting new journal entries. But this story, she actually time travels! Then she finds that the pages in her journal at home (when she comes back) are all blank. The pen that she threw out was right next to the journal for some reason! HOW DID THAT HAPPEN!? A burglar found the pen and went into her room to put it next to her journal. LOL I don’t know anymore!

Sum1 haz 2 HALP MEE wit dis STORY!! *gives up and falls asleep*

You were expecting me!? AWWW MANNNN!!!

My editor was expecting me to give her my work yesterday, but I was out of the house the time she was available. THEN when I got home, she wasn’t available! That. Sucks.

25_001I feel so sad! But at the same time, I have more time to write more stuff. BUT at the same time, I have a feeling she was expecting more *sad face* YEA CUZ I still have liek, wut. 1,400 words. I didn’t add anything else after my last bit of a story I did!

I think 1,400 words is all I can submit. I’m really tired today. I slept for only a few hours and went to a doctor’s appointment AND I usually don’t wake up at noon. I usually wake up at liek, 3-4pm. After this doctor’s appointment, surprisingly I actually am up at nine in the morning LIEK WTF MAN how is that even possible for someone like me!?

I was srsly gonna watch some Gintama yesterday on crunchyroll, but I was logged in on some other account and wasn’t sure if I should’ve logged out so in the end I NEVER got the chance to WATCH MY FAVORITE ANIME after coming home exhausted. DAMN IT ALL.

Aside from that, I thought I saw my crush from like, high school. I was actually thinking of him FOR SOME ODD REASON at a restaurant. Then he SUDDENLY appeared at an asian supermarket. I mean, I don’t usually see an asian that tall and thin like him around there, so it must… be him… LOL

I had a weird feeling cuz he was like walking over to where I was sitting, then I noticed he looked at me, so I slightly looked away. THEN HE WALKED AWAY. *disappointed*

I have no idea, it must’ve been my imagination, but all day yesterday, guys were staring at me. I was thinking…

“Wait, it there something on my face?”
“No, you’re just one hell of an ugly bitch they’ve never seen before.”

All of them just had a straight face, but they were actually thinking, “GAWD, why dafuq does this hoe even exist?” *gets thrown off a building* In the end, I’m the only one who thinks I’m hot and scary at the same time.